I feel happy and hopeful today. Like anything is possible.
The last few days I've felt totally overwhelmed by my year project. The pressure of doing it and doing it well has pushed me to do self destructive stuff (eating my anxiety), which I always hate because it's so cliche. And every bone in my body said, stop pretending like you're going to do this thing, you know you're not, why this charade?
But today I am OK. I can see that sometimes you just have to relax and live your life the best you can with no expectations of grandeur.
It's OK to do nothing sometimes. It's OK to just be you, today, the way you are, without having to prove to yourself every second that you're good, you're strong, you're special.
There's nothing wrong with just being, at peace, with no specific purpose than to just breath.